Oh goddy god.

So

Hi

So much feels and no words


Ok

This is what happened


I went to the movies with him.

Sir Puppy Face.

I saw him finally in the flesh after YEARS. Like more than 10 years.

He is a puppy face.

And I was so awkward the whole time.


What is going through my head the whole time:

  • Do I still look pretty?
  • Am I prettier than his midget girlfriend?
  • Can he see the guys checking me out?
  • Am I prettier than his midget girlfriend?
  • Is he looking at me?
  • Yes he is. Oh God.
  • Hi.
  • Am I prettier than his midget girlfriend?
  • Why is this not awkward for him?
  • He is so much fun and carefree.
  • Look at how stiff I am.

Wow look, a bulleted list.



Can I use the bullets again? This is gonna be very random pero i'll try my best.

So this is what happened in that sinful dayte. No I wouldn't call it that. No.

  • Yes I agreed to a movie with him. And no, Red-Yellow-Green guy didn't know.
  • This is biglaan I swear. Naka office attire pa ko kase kakagaling ko lang ng interview.
  • Wahey he's taller than me! I can wear heels next time I see him. If there is a next time.
  • I stuttered.
  • He doesn't understand my weirdness.
  • I can't unleash my weirdness on him kase he dominates so much. Like he says all the funny stuff.
  • He wants to touch me. HE WANTS TO TOUCH ME. Not that kind of touch.
  • Keep your mind off the gutter.Nagpipigil ako I swear. I want ze touch din.

    I want to hug him more and more and more.


  •   His body feeeels niiiiice. It feels good to hug him. One of the best hugs ever.

  • His soft lips.

    No not like that. we kissed each other sa cheeks several times.

    I can still feel his lips on my face.

    Tae can I be cheesier than this?

I'll stop with the bullets now.

So sa cinema
Our arms were pressed against each other
(Actually it'd be really nice if I can lift up the seat dividers so I can just maul him. Kidding.)
I tried not to look at him too much even though I know he stares kinda discreetly din.
Tas kunyare I'll catch him looking,
Me : Bakit?
Him: Wala. Sungit mo.
Me: Hindi naman ah. Pinipigilan ko na nga "magsungit"
Him: O kita mo? Feeling ko pag hinalikan kita ngayon sasampalin mo ko
Me: Hindi naman. Tulak ko lang muka mo.

THEN it got really really cold in the cinema.
He wanted to put his arm around me but it felt uncomfortable because I'm awkward as fuck.
He told me to cling on his arm instead. So I did. Oh gosh.

Fuck I want a replay. Pwede? I'll do better promise. I'll be less awkward. Less sungit. PLEASE?

He touched my face, "Are you bored?"
He kissed my cheek. I smiled, "No it's fine."

TAPOS TAPOS TAPOS
Diba when you get out of the cinema in the middle of the movie they put this stamp on you?
Eh he went out to pee when the trailers were rolling, yung cr kase nasa labas pa
Eto. When the movie ended, I saw him rubbing something off his forearm.
HE WAS ERASING THE STAMP ON HIS ARM.
GETTING RID OF THE EVIDENCE.
You sly dog.
I saw it and then I turned around, pretending to fix something in my bag, and then I giggled.
Yes I giggled. It was funny! Should I be hurt? Lol no, it really was funny.
Tas I sprayed alcohol on mine pero it didn't come off completely.
I can still see it on me til now. And when I do natatawa ako ulit.

Then we got up, he was talking about the movie.
I held on to his arm while we were walking out.
By the way I still can't get over how tall he is.
So again, I was holding on to his arm, then he kind of shimmied his arm a little
I know what he was trying to do.
Our palms ended up touching.
We were 70% holding hands.
I know he wanted to lace our fingers together. Like the couple type holding hands.
And oh gosh that feeling. Hindi ko maexplain.
It was a cute moment I swear.
The last time I felt like this was with Macky when we first started going out, when everything was still cute.
It wasn't love and they're not the kind of feelings that I should be worried about. I know they're not.
It wasn't intense but it was such a fluffy feeling.
We didn't end up lacing our fingers together, kase bumitaw ako and pretended to fix my hair.
I didn't know why. I wanted it just as much as he does perooooo
First time ko pa lang sya nakita eh.

So since my car was parked in Eastwood we agreed to go there together. Then we'll drive to Rob near Sta. Lu.
I wanted to take the jeep going to Guadalupe and then MRT to Cubao
Then jeep again from Cubao to Eastwood.
It's fine with me. If I'm alone that's what I would totally do.
But he insisted on taking the cab.
I didn't want to. I just don't want him to think that I'm maarte.
I love that feeling when boys expected me to be maarte over something then they'll realize na
I really don't give a shit. I like it when they look all impressed. Lol I know kinda weird.
So we ended up arguing a little over it. He wanted to take the cab and I didn't want to.
Tas he said, "Tingnan mo nga suot mo? Tingin mo appropriate yan para sa jeep?"
He's kinda right. I was wearing a peplum cotton top and a tight mini skirt.
But I told him I rode the jeep that day for 3 times already. He looked at me disapprovingly.
I shut up immediately. That was the first time he acknowledged how I looked since we saw each other.
Aside from him saying I'm cute countless times with matching pinch sa cheek.
Also aside from him saying my cheeks are big. And then he said that it's cute.
But I don't want him to think I'm cute!
I wasn't even trying to look cute at all. I'm in office clothes can't you see??! Who the hell looks cute in office clothes??
Plus his midget girlfriend is cute. She's the cute one. Not me.
Tas he said na he'll pay for the cab.
And that's even worse! I just didn't want him to think na I'm maarte kaya I'm insisting on taking the jeep instead.
But if he thinks that the reason that I don't want to take the cab is because I have no money, then that's another thing. That's kind of a blow on my pride actually. You know about how I feel when guys pay for me.
I did not say anything after that anymore. I didn't want to look defensive or something.
Plus I didn't have money din naman. Lol so there.

When we got to Eastwood, he asked me if sanay ako ipadrive sa iba yung car ko.
I am actually. But that only applies to Lezzie #2. I don't trust any other person.
I asked him if he wanted to drive. He said yes. I looked at him as if I'm saying, "No"
Then he asked if my car has tinted windows. "Yes."
Then he said, "May tint naman pala eh, wala naman makakakita satin na ako nagddrive ng kotse mo."
I laughed at that. I hit his chest and said that I wasn't worried about that.
It's funny because if I'm in a relationship (which he is) I'd be totally worried.
So I let him drive the car
He laughed a lot about how cute I was being. Because I was freaking the hell out.
He said he's being extra careful and that I owe him a kiss for that.
And I said sure if you get us there safely.
So when we got there in the parking lot.
He asked again for the kiss.
So I grabbed his face and aimed for his cheek.
He was turning his head so I would have to land on his lips
But I was grabbing his face so I have control.
I kissed his face hard. Really innocent.
He was like, "Parang baby lang?!"
Me, "Yes actually" that's because I think he's really cute.

We parted ways sa loob. I hugged him and he kissed my cheek.
Bye.