Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, April 1, 2014
date me
be my boyfriend
be the perfect boyfriend
be the cutest thing ever
hold my heart
then crush it.
crush it so hard that i won't ever feel love again
when i had you again
i thought that this was it
that i wouldn't be putting up walls anymore
never did it ever occur to me that i would be putting up walls again
walls around my heart to keep from hurting.
walls against you.
you're the only thing that makes me weak
it might sound sweet but it's a bad thing
when i started going out with y... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Saturday, March 15, 2014
"Crazy about each other, crazy about each other..."
"Because when you're in love,
Nothing else could possibly matter more, than the one you love." Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, February 11, 2014
So here's what I found out today.
The ex lived with him.
In his house.
With his family.
While they were together.
With his family.
With his ate, his brother, his dad, his stepmom, the dogs.
They lived together.
Can someone tell me what to properly feel about that?
Inggit ba?
Or galit?
Kase I definitely feel both, and some.
I have no idea they were that serious.
The scenes kept playing in my head.
I can't help it.
Kisses before he leaves the house for work.
Kisses when he gets home.
Kisses... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, February 2, 2014
Draft 1
Minsan, when I'm just sitting down, not doing anything, I avoid closing my eyes, and my thoughts going deep. Kase if I do that, my mind tends to go to places I don't want to be. The cute things he does plays in my mind like a slideshow.
I mean I like being there, because he's a cutie, and at the same time, a babe.
But thinking about him like that makes me cry. Kase minsan I cant believe na eto na yon. Na I would ever find this kind of love ever (or is it again?) Anyway.
It's in that cute way h...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, February 2, 2014
Is this how I lose him?
Friday night with my cousin was supposed to be perfect.
It was fun until things went downhill.
I didn't know what happened, how it happened.
My cousin said it was the scariest night of her life,
the 2nd half of it.
I wouldn't know. I wasn't there.
Well I was, physically.
We were drinking with these boys.
They were giving us drinks.
She said she went to the bathroom and
then she came back to a different me.
And then I passed out. Cold. Like the dead.
Yes she said I looked... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, January 21, 2014
I don't even know how to start this
I don't remember feeling this kind of pain ever
It hit me 4 hours after we sent them off
4 hours after we last held hands, kissed.
It hit me after I did my errands.
In my car, after I shut the door
Right after I took my earphones off.
When the music stopped,
When the noise finally died down,
When I was alone in my car.
Alone with my feelings and thoughts of him.
It hit me that that was the last time I'd feel his skin.
That that was the last time he'd be able to hold me... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Then I don't know what is Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, December 31, 2013
"There's no words to explain how big it was,
what he and I had,
or how much it hurts when something that big in your life is swept away,
or how empty that place is he once filled,
or how impossible it is to find something to fill it,
but since everyone knew i drained myself empty...."
"I was remembering good stuff and for the first time
in a long time, those memories didn't come with pain." Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, December 29, 2013
I like games.
Games are fun.
Pero I hope you're not playing games with me.
Kase we all know na against you, lagi akong talo.
I never win.
And the kind of games you get me involved in,
They leave my heart massacred.
I trust you though.
I trust na you're not playing.
Pero sometimes,
You don't even realize how far ahead you are
in the game you don't even know you're playing.
And I end up losing.
Whatever this is, if this doesn't turn out well,
We all know na I'll be the one in blood.
We all know na baka hindi... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Friday, September 13, 2013
Remember that part of my life when I thought it would be sort of hot/fun to date someone younger?
Yeah I remember too.
Eh what about nung I actually started dating one? Someone younger I mean.
Yeah I remember too.
Eh yung part na I started to swear younger guys off my life?
Yeah I remember too.
Eh yung part na I realized that no matter what happened,
no matter how bad yung naging experience with that particular younger guy
I still can't shake off the fact na I still secretly hold a torch for younger ... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Friday, September 13, 2013
Ever been in that moment where you realize that you just don't care about anything at all in particular. Starting off with work, it feels like I don't give a rat's ass anymore. I should tremble at the thought of getting a memo But I'm not. But I can barely open up my fb knowing I'll see updates from my officemates. Seeing their posts feels like looking at responsibilities. Responsibilities I don't care about. At least not anymore. I mean I originally don't care but then I started caring, then I don't ... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, September 1, 2013
That I'd like it there.
That it'd be fun someday.
Well there you go.
Before it felt a liiiiittle bit like torture.
But now...
I'm now at the point where I don't mind going to work anymore.
Work isn't what I expected.
I hated it before but now I get it.
And now I'm fine with it.
So last night.
Last night was one of those nights where I got saktong lasing lang.
Let me ask this ah,
Why is tequila everybody's weakness?
Also not everyone's there.
Not even the usual people from our group.
And some archi people I ... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Wednesday, July 17, 2013
You wanna know something weird?
Whenever I hear One and Only by Adele and Just a Feeling by Maroon 5,
I still have this tiny twisty feeling inside me, it's really really weird.
First time I heard/appreciated those songs was when we were in Laguna.
Wiv ze lezzies and The Kid.
Weird noh?
I like associate those songs to him now.
Not that I dedicate those songs to him. Nothing baduy like that.
It's just that those songs take me back to that moment,
It's like having a glimpse of what I felt back t... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Wednesday, May 15, 2013
MR. STURDY: I DESERVE ALL CAPS IN EVERYTHING.
Me: Shut up and fuck me.
Oh god.
Those were my thoughts while he talks to me.
Stapeet brain!
None of those.
But please MR. STURDY, just shut up and fuck me instead.
Someone wash my mouth with soap.
My dirty brain too. Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Oh God. The post under this. Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, March 24, 2013
So this guy holding my hand will be Brown or is it Olive?
And this guy I'm staring at while Brown holds my hand will be Ube.
Based on what they were wearing that night.
Brown's shirt looks kind of Olive-y.
So anyway, there, while Brown holds my hand and touches me every-freaking-where (inappropriately),
like my hair, my legs, my arms, my waist, my back, I stare at Ube.
I light up whenever Ube approaches me.
But Brown is the one beside me.
Brown is the one texting me, calling me.
Brown wants to date me... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Wednesday, March 6, 2013
So should I now start calling everyone "Bebe"?
Before I find it kinda jologs.
Well not really, that was harsh.
It's more like this.
You'll never hear classy people call someone "Bebe".
Right?
Before, when people call me "'beh",
They get a smile from me.
Now, at my new work, people call each other Bebe or beh.
And now, I think it warms my heart when they call me that.
It's kind of endearing, don't you think?
"Hindi ganyan bebe."
"Pakuha naman beh."
I sometimes have to stop myself from calling someone bebe ... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Monday, February 25, 2013
Sometimes, I wish I have a Blogger instead of this crappy site.
And by sometimes, I mean, always.
So why Yola and not Blogger?
Because Blogger doesn't open in my office computer in Hell.
So update on my boring life.
I'm watching Supernatural again.  There.
I'm on Season 6 now.
I know I said "I'm done with this show" many, many times
But I just got hooked all over again.
They're on Season 8 now and I heard it's really good.
Plus I only hate this show because these boys break my heart.
Including Castiel.
Bu... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Thursday, February 21, 2013
Remember when I said (from continuation)
P.S.
Dear You-don't-know-who (bec I haven't talked about him yet here),
Please stop being cute.
Do you want me to pounce on you kase you're too cute and I can't take it?
No diba? So stop it.
Love, me.I wanted him to stop being cute.
Well he did quit.
How obedient.
Him: That wasn't cute anymore, Louie. What more do you want?
Me: blah blah blah blah. I want you to erase my memories.
WHY AM I MAKING THIS OUT TO BE SUCH A BIG DEAL?
Because there's nothing else to talk... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Thursday, February 21, 2013
Blog, are you cursed?
With your love pala.
I thought....
Oh well, I knew it.
Kept telling people but they won't believe me.
Kept telling myself but he is just too cute.
Oh well.
Oh well again.
Hey, balitaan mo ko what happens next.
Wait.
Do I sound bitter?
I hope not. Kase I'm not.
More like 10% surprised, 5% pissed and 85% frowning.
Oh I don't know.
It's that feeling when you find out your celebrity crush is now dating someone.
You know from the beginning that you never had a chance
But he's too cute and yo... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, February 19, 2013
So yeah,
Update on that emergency corporate meeting.
We all got drunk last night.
Went home around 4.
Lahat sila halos may pasok ng morning after.
And I tried my first weed.
I only did like less than 5 puffs.
So anyway,
Remember when I said I wanted to try being broke?
Because most of the happiest people I know are broke and they get by, happy.
And I'm jealous. So I said I wanted to try that kind of life.
Well now I'm experiencing it, I can now say that
When you're broke, you experience real life.
I like... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Monday, February 18, 2013
Hello blog.
So sorry I'm gonna be a bit busy starting next week-ish.
Well that's because I'm a working girl na.
Lol. Haha. That sounds super weird. I'm only kidding.
As if work can keep me away from you, dear bloggie.
I'm just updating on my life.
What should I wear to work kaya?
Tae my eyes are drying up.
I actually nearly teared up during the interview.
They are all super nice. I would love to work there.
They said, "Welcome to the family."
Tae aren't they cute?
So I was walking papunta sa train statio... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Hi.
Malapit na ko magka trabaho. I can feel it.
I went in an interview yesterday, in greenhills.
I'm loving the job description.
It has a lot of potential growth and
I don't know, it just feels right for me.
I told my mom about it
She asked how much will the compensation be
It's a lot lower than my previous salary
But it's a small company so I wasn't expecting much
I think they're going to offer me the job on friday
My mom doesn't want me to accept if they won't give me a better offer
I feel like a minim... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, February 10, 2013
Ugh. Why do I even like you?
Syempre after ilan days crush na ulit nita.
Tae. Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Friday, February 8, 2013
Hi.
Sobra ba yung hinihingi ko?
Can you blame me if I'm starting to feel tired?
I never stopped.
Pero I don't know how long I can keep this going.
It's depressing and I don't want to dwell in it too much
But if you think you've submitted over a hundred resumes and went through about 20 interviews and exams
(I'm not even exaggerating) you'll find yourself tired too.
I know several friends whom experienced about 5% of what I'm going through right now
And they think that all those rejection depresses the... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Sunday, February 3, 2013
I think I'm losing friends because I kind of chose Sir Puppy Face.
He (Mr. Likes-me-too-much) used to ask me out on weekends.
In a very annoying way, but still, he asks.
He asks me out like this,
Him: May gagawin ka sa Saturday?
You know he's asking you to hang out right?
So I'll say,
Me: Wala naman. Bakit? Ano meron?
AND THEN HE'LL FREAKING CHANGE THE TOPIC.
Like why????
Tas after mga several exchange of messages, mga 4 or 5 siguro.
He'll ask again,
Him: So wala kang gagawin sa Sat? You sure?
Me: Wala ng... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Uhm yeah. Hi.
I like a guy.
Bow.
I like a guy who is not conyo but is not afraid of Starbucks
I like a guy who smokes (for a change naman)
Lol how fun would it be if I influenced him to quit and use that electronic cigarette thingy instead?
Tapos quit na for good, tapos he'll thank me for it because of how it changed his life.
Lol thank you. Thank you very much.
Oh my freaking spazzing spazz!
I just realized I never kissed a smoker, or anyone who smokes
And ever since my last boyfriend (I was in colleg... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Oo nga, ano nga ba nangyayare?
"These are not the kind of feelings that I should be worried about," says me.
Sana dahil lang magkakaperiod na ko.
Lagi ko na lang excuse yan.
I don't understand what I feel right now.
I just know that it's not a good feeling.
Sad or confused or stressed or angry. Or as if I'm about to cry.
I don't want to feel this. I don't want to feel anything.
Emotions, please go away.
I think this is the fastest that I've ever fallen for a guy.
Did I just say....?
I'll d... Continue reading...
Posted by louie louie on Monday, January 28, 2013
“It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven’t left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. Ha ha, funny. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you’re not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living tha... Continue reading...
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