I think I'm losing friends because I kind of chose Sir Puppy Face.

He (Mr. Likes-me-too-much) used to ask me out on weekends.
In a very annoying way, but still, he asks.

He asks me out like this,
Him: May gagawin ka sa Saturday?

You know he's asking you to hang out right?
So I'll say,
Me: Wala naman. Bakit? Ano meron?

AND THEN HE'LL FREAKING CHANGE THE TOPIC.
Like why????
Tas after mga several exchange of messages, mga 4 or 5 siguro.
He'll ask again,

Him: So wala kang gagawin sa Sat? You sure?
Me: Wala nga. Lol. Bakit nga?

Tas he'll change the topic again.
I promise I'm not exaggerating this.

Then several messages after,
Him: Kung wala kang gagawin sa Sat gusto mo pumunta sa....
Me: Yes. Ok. What time tayo magkikita?
Him: I'll pick you up at 7. That good?
Me: (hesitant. because I know him) Ok. Sa katip na lang.
Then I'll ask kuya to bring me to katip by 7.30

Tas I'll wait for him na dumating hanggang 9

I hate it.
Plus didn't I tell you na I think he likes me too much
And that I'm starting to get scared of that fact?

So I think I kind of made that clear.
I acted kinda bitchy last time I saw him.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. Hormones.
Plus I wasn't exactly bitchy.
Just distracted.
A lot distracted. Like super.
And I wasn't even pretending just to throw him off.
It's just I was thinking of the mini-fight Sir Puppy Face and I just had before I went out that day.

I think it was pretty clear to Mr. Likes-too-much that I didn't enjoy that "date" much.
Well it's because he was being too much!
I swear anyone would freak out.

I mentioned to him once (a week ago I think) that my lezzie friends and I
wanted to go to Bangin since forever
And then that day, he told me that he'll take me there to watch the sunset!!!!
Too fucking cheesy!
I'm sorry if I'm not the kind of girl who you take to places like that and then magically fall in love with you.
I can't handle it.

I said, "Ikaw bahala. Sayang wala sila Carla."
Him: San ba nakatira sila Carla?
Me: Malayo dito, sa angono, almost binangonan. (did that on purpose para malayuan sya)

Tas after a while, he was talking like this,
Him: What time tayo pupunta sa Angono para sunduin sila Carla?
Me: What??
Him: Sabi mo gusto mo kasama sila Carla
Me: (Oh god) Next time na. Infinitea na lang tyo.

Plus I hate his driving. I won't ever let him drive my car.
And I don't want to be in his car again. Not if I can help it.
He has a nice car, don't get me wrong.
He has the manly/pogi kind of car. You know, yung manipis yung harap na black Civic?
Anyway
While we were in his car driving around Antipolo,
All I wanted was to be in my car and go straight home.
He just wasn't a good driver.
Who am I to judge right? But really.
Feeling ko pag may pinaupo kang elderly woman in his passenger seat,
She'll have a heart attack after 15 mins.

Then after that day I didn't reply much to his texts anymore.
I still text him, but not as much.
We went from texting non-stop back and forth everyday to 2 texts a day.
Then there was this one time this week
I told him that my mom wanted to eat the peanut brittle I bought for him from Baguio.
And that all of my friends who saw it wanted to steal it
And he was saying that I should have just given it away
And then I told him,
Me: Eh sayo yon. Binigyan ko na sila ng kanila.
Him: Kahit na. Sana binigay mo na lang. Bigay mo na yan sa mom mo.
Me: Pag may pinuntahan kame ulit na malayo bibilhan na lang kita ulit.
Him: Wag na.
Me: Eh ok, ikaw bahala.
Parang he was saying,
"I don't want it anyway. I don't know why you even bother to keep it for me"
But he asked me for it, when I asked him what he wanted from Baguio,

See?
What is with all the drama?
Can't I be friends with you anymore?
Why can't you just tell me what you feel and then
we'll talk about it.

I'll tell you that I really like you, and that you're really cool
And that I don't want to lose you.
But I'm just not ready for what you want.
But I really really want to be your friend.

You're a good guy,
And that if it was some other girl who's doing this to you,
I'll definitely hate her.
But at the same time I'll tell you to
MAN THE FUCK UP and just tell her how you feel.
Hindi yung muka kayong tanga na nagkakapaan ng susunod na mangyayare.
Ok lang yung ganon if you have some chemistry to guide you both
But in this case I don't think we have any of that.

So Louie, where is this coming from?
Mukang may pinaghuhugutan ka.
Well yes.

I saw sa facebook na they all went and hung out together.
Na nag inuman sila and they all had fun and stuff.
They, meaning grade school friends who told me na pag get together,
they'll definitely invite me
But this time they didn't.
No one even mentioned it.
Is this all of his doing?
I don't know. Might be.
Syempre mas friends sila.
So sya yung kakampihan or whatever.
Am I being a jealous bitch
Just because I wasn't invited in a freaking party
I feel like I am. Maybe I am.
Pero they are not talking to me anymore and I feel really sad about it

I feel like I'm being blind-sided on this.
That if I don't like you back, that if I don't flirt back,
you'll take my potential friends away from me,
that you'll turn them against me.
Bye.